i felt like i should maybe delete that last entry but i dont delete things from this blog. everything has truth in the moment.
im doing better today. no idea why but im not complaining. maybe the med increase is working?
speaking of meds, i still have this stupid rash and i spent the day calling my doctors office only to get a busy signal the entire time. i dont know what to do about that. i did successfully get my ei straightened out though, so thats good.
the things i said about christian last time are still true. i am depending on him too much and i am still having trouble completely letting go of the relationship we sort of had before all of this went down. but not talking to him was a stupid idea. id rather work through it together than apart, and hes been more than willing to try to work through it with me, even if he never talks about it unless i force him to. he really is a good friend, even if its hard for me to just be that.
i dont know what the point of this entry was. i just felt like i needed to say that.